From Crazyville to Clearwater - Feeling my Truth

Welcome back, my fellow Spirit. Thank you for stopping by and taking the time to read my articles. I really appreciate your visit and hope that I can lighten up your day a little. Let's have some fun, today. As they say: "Laughter is the best medicine." This is especially true whenever we accidentally hurt ourselves because we go astray and end up in the roadside ditch, which is somewhat similar to my latest undertaking. Join me on another "behind-the-scenes" tour to get some insights on how to find your truth and why it really matters that you intentionally follow through with it. Still feeling good about this? Then, let's go.

Just this morning, I somehow got inspired to open up a social media account for my Little Spirit project. Which platform doesn't matter, as they're all interchangeable. Now, as you may or may not know, I generally don't go on or think much about social media. I just don't like it - at all. It feels awful - heavy, constrictive, and dark, and it quickly lowers my vibrational frequency.

Believe it or not, this is not my first attempt, though. I already tried it once, years ago, for a different project of mine. Back then, I was holding on to the false belief that "one has to be on social media if one wants to be successful." Obviously, the whole world uses social media. It's ever-present, pervasive, and takes a huge part in many people's lives. So, there shouldn't be anything wrong with it, right?

The sad thing is that so many of us still don't fully realize, or actively negate the detrimental effects the mindless consumption of an endless array of reels, posts, videos, and what else can be sent out into the Universe, has on us. Not only does this unconscious behavioral pattern engage and stimulate our minds in unhealthy ways, but it also activates our sympathetic nervous system, and with that our "fight-or-flight response."

The result is a rather self-induced, sudden spike in our perceived stress level. On a physical level, this can be sensed as an increase in our heart rate, blood pressure, and breathing rate, leaving us feel tense, exhausted, and tired. Mentally, we lose our ability to think clearly and act rationally. And in terms of emotions, we may feel anxious, fearful, confused, depressed, or even all of them, at once.

That puts it pretty much in a nutshell, how I felt this morning. So, what brought me "down to my knees," battling with the "demons of darkness," in the first place, you might wonder? My subconscious mind, or to be more precise, aforementioned outdated belief, which I'm apparently still holding onto and hadn't taken the time to fully investigate yet, in terms of its current validity.

As I already wrote, somehow I adopted, and neatly stored away to keep for future purposes, the belief that "being on social media equals success", or at least leads to many clicks and likes, and with that to many followers, ergo a bigger audience for this project. I couldn't be more wrong. How so? Because it doesn't feel good.

I guess you can already merrily sing along with me that "everything is energy and everything is one," right? Maybe I should write a song about it? It would definitely be a real "earworm." I'm just kidding. Am I? Anyhow, I bet you also remember what I wrote about "the game of life," being an illusion for your soul to learn, grow, and successfully solve various challenges over the period of your lifetime. You're awesome! I really mean it. Us humans, we should be way more encouraging and uplifting in our interaction with each other, don't you think?!

Where was I? Yeah, the "game of life." So, if your soul is the creator of your very own "game of life," what could it possibly do to let you, the protagonist in this game, know that you're on the right path? What might be a good way to give you valuable, live feedback if your current choices are putting you in a good spot, or leading you astray from your soul's path? Ponder these questions for a sec. The answer is basically hiding in plain sight.

Any idea, yet? Drumroll, please! The answer to those queations is so simple, even a toddler already knows how to put them into practice, without having ever been told about any of this. And? Feelings! As in "How does it feel, intuitively?," or "How's your gut feeling?" It's all about the actual perception of the situation, in real-time. Sounds too good to be true? Nope. It's just that simple.

If something feels intrinsically good, if it sparks joy in you, if it puts a smile on your face, and if it let's your heart dance blissfully like a child on a merry-go-round, that's your cue right there. Do it. Follow through. Enjoy yourself. You're supposed to feel good about yourself and your life experience. If, on the other hand, something feels off, somehow wrong, or stresses you out, if your intuition whispers to you, asking you to stop and reconsider your plan of action, if your guts get all cramped up and piping hot, then by all means, don't force yourself to do it. Stop right where you are. Take a deep breath or two, and observe what is happening right now.

The important thing to remember is this: You never "have to do" anything. For real. If you can't decide on what to do, don't do it. It's an illusion. A false belief you were just kindly made aware of by your Higher Self, and are now being asked to gently let go of. Give yourself permission to contemplate your situation. Timing is not the issue here. The belief system is. The mind is.

The moment you feel inspired to proceed, go for it. "Inspired Action" - believe it or not, that's another Universal Law right there. That's how important it is. You'll see for yourself, it'll feel good, and the process of doing will be smooth, "flowy," and rather effortless. That's aforementioned Universal Law "in action." The wording is just hilarious here, don't you think?

Today, I was invited to do exactly that. To stop my attempt of opening an social media account, to feel and listen inside, and to proceed only when inspired to. Yeah, that didn't happen, unfortunately. I wish it were, but I'm just a human, too. What should I say? Remembering my soul's origin doesn't keep me from doing stupid things or trying "to make it happen," from time to time.

So, what really happened was this. I opened the account. I felt slightly uncomfortable doing so, but I pushed this feeling aside. See? Trying to make it happen, again. I just proved my point, I guess. Then, I literally went through ALL the fine print on the platform. I turned off the permissions, disabled the data storage, unchecked every option that seemed too nosy and intrusive to me, which were basically all of them. It took me two hours. TWO hours! That's time I'll never get back.

But, I pushed through, still ignoring the bad feeling I had. I finished up by uploading my first post, and couldn't be more proud of myself. Then, I signed out, put my phone aside, and did something that actually sparks joy in me every time I do it - yoga. While I was deeply immersed in my practice, I was becoming more and more aware of my own energy frequency.

I could feel, how my stress level still kept increasing although I wasn't being active online for quite some time now. With my belly tensing up, the joy I usually feel during practice eventually dissolved like "ice cubes in a glass of coke that's been left out to stand in the South African summer sun." Instead, my mood and emotions got darker and darker. First restlessness and confusion, then irritability and anxiety, and finally, fear and overwhelming sadness. My mind was "speeding like a racehorse, determined to win the Kentucky Derby." All in all, I couldn't be lower in terms of energy.

Fortunately, I already have a bit of experience with situations like these, as they happen every now and then, still. See? Just like any other human being. This being the case, I developed a few strategies to efficiently pull myself out of the hole I carefully digged out for myself again, but with upmost gentleness, and as careful as a "brain surgeon operating on a patient."

The patient in need is me, and the cure for my State of Being is self love - heaps of it. First, I accept the present moment just as it is, and consciously decide to really feel myself. Doing so, I'm also actively observing how the situation itself is unfolding, what contributed to this mess in the first place, and which role my mind plays in all of it. What was I thinking? Really! What...was...I...thinking? What do I believe to be true? How does it feel? Does it feel true to me?

The next thing I do is remember. Remember what? The truth. My truth. That all is energy and all is one. Here we go again, the "earworm" is already in the making. I can tell you that. The next thing I usually remember is that all of what I believe to be true might very well be an illusion, a false belief that's been secretly stored on my internal "hard-drive," just to be used to challenge me, when the time is right. I guess, the time was right.

In terms of remembering, I literally take it one thought after another. It seems so simple that even a three-year old should be able to do it, right? Just wait until your next crisis comes knocking on your door, when your mind has taken over the steering wheel and is driving you to Crazyville. All you can think about then sounds probably something like this. "It's a nightmare. It's not supposed to be like this. I don't want this. It should go away - now! Life is a hellhole. I don't wanna do this, anymore! I quit." Sounds familiar? We've all been there. Trust me. We're all the same - human.

Back to the illusion of the game, before I venture too far off course and end up in a roadside ditch, again. As I'm basically coaxing myself to remember what I just wrote, you know, all being energy and so, I'm at least starting to see light at the end of the tunnel, shining bright and strong. I almost need sunglasses. Next, I focus on the way I feel and try to remember how it felt before, when I was still online. With my vibrational frequency now steadily rising, I realize the complete scope of the challenge I was presented with, today. How I felt during the entire process. What led me to believe in it's seeming significance. How I ignored all the signs and telltales along the way.

At last, I'm able to "tune-in" to the radio broadcast of my Higher Self, again. Finally! What a relief! Being human is exhausting. It's just wonderful when you feel like yourself again, and are able to connect with your Higher Self on the other side. In an instant, I'm being informed of the successful completion of today's super challenge. I passed the test. It took me five hours in total from being led to believe that "having a social media account is a necessity for the success of my soul's mission", to eventually figure out that it's not true, at least for me. In the end, I deleted my account and "cleaned" my phone, energetically.

Being the creator of my game, I understand that my soul chose to use intuition and feelings as the perfect means to safely guide me through the treacherous waters of my life, making sure I don't get swept away into the open water. The way I felt this morning, and still feel when I even think of creating a social media account says it all. I feel awful. That's my sign. And I trust it. I follow through with it. I'd rather stay offline and be happy and at ease, than wasting anymore precious time and energy by ignoring what my heart knew all along.

Of course, this is only my truth. Your truth might look totally different, and that's ok. In fact, every "player" in this game, we're all playing, has their very own truth. You just have to find and embrace it. How? Listen inside. How do you feel? Does whatever you are doing spark joy in you, or do you have to convince, or maybe even force yourself to actually do it? Always listen to and follow your heart. It knows the way. That's the secret to a happy life right there.